Hi, I'm new on here, I have already entered one blog but well maybe I didnt start very well.  Heyho!!!  Anyway maybe I should start by saying "Thank goodness I now have somewhere to vent and say the things that I cant always say at home.  First things first, I am nearly 30 and am getting married to the most amazing man in a few weeks.  Dont get me wrong he's only amazing cos he puts up with me and hasn't left me for someone else yet.  He still does all the things men are supposed to do like leave things lying around and leaves bits of paper in his pockets although he is very good in lots of ways I guess, he cooks every night, I haven't cooked in 5 years. I do wash up though.  He also cleans the cat out and helps me clean at the weekends.  So anyway we are getting married and although I love him sometimes I also hate him sometimes as well and keep thinking am I about to make the most momentous mistake of my life?  Heyho!!!  We have had a few problems in the past and I just keep thinking what if but actually I am driving myself crazy with what ifs and wish I could be more laid back and not worry about things that might not happen.  I'm not working at the moment.  I left my job last year, I hated it.  Anyway thats for another blog I think.  I dont seem to be able to stick at a job and not because I am lazy or anything its just that I have so many ideas and ways in which I think things can be better and yet the people in charge or the people who get paid more than me (which is everyone) dont seem to like the fact that you are trying to take there thunder and make life hell.  I must admit I often development contempt for these people because I like to observe people and what they do and to be honest the majority of these people seem to do as little as possible, the only skill they have is knowing which task will get them the most recognition or glory.  While other like me take the flack for the little things not being done.  Anyway I am sick of working for other people and making them money, so I'm not working at the mo, although my consience keeps telling me to go out and get a job, the thought of going back to a job that I know I will hate makes me panic.  I want to work for myself but have no money and no idea what I could do.  I just wish my fairy godmother would wave her magic wand and everything would be perfect.  Thats what comes from reading Cinderella & Sleeping Beauty when you are a kid. 
We are currently living in the smallest flat imaginable, so thin you darent breath and the landlord is a nosey old ***, he comes round virtually every day he owns the flat below as well so just lets himself in and then starts banging or hammering or drilling and then I have to sit still and not move because he doesnt know that I am not working.  That does not impress me.  My stomach goes into spasm and my legs start to shake violently, we also have a cat which we aren't supposed to have and so that is another problem, cos I have to make sure he doesnt cry.  I just wish the silly old duffer would leave me alone. 
Then there is my cat, he is my baby and I love him to death.  He talks to me and knows when I'm ill and never leaves my side, he is currently sat on top of the sofa, looking at me as I write this.  He waits outside the bathroom door when I take a shower and follows me everywhere I go, which isn't very far in here.  He doesn;t go outside, which I sometimes feel a bit guilty about but he has never been outside so he doesnt know what he's missing and when I got him from the rescue centre they said he had been with dogs so not to let him out because he would think all dogs were friendly.
So that is a little bit about me, better go now himself will be here any minute. See ya!!!

I cant help feeling slightly deflated with everthing at the moment.  Throughout the course of life I seem to emcounter lots of problems and reasons to complain.  For example supermarkets, not sure if I can name them but I have had problems with two of our major supermarkets recently and the responses I have received or lack of a response is disgusting.  Of course these supermarkets dont give a damn because they have such a huge portion of the market and make so much profit that they dont have to give a damn if they upset one insignificant little person.  Also it is the same with buses.  I travel a lot by public transport and the buses I have a real problem with are the LAST!!!! ones.  They are rubbish, they are always late or just dont turn up at all, u can never get a satisfactory response if you complain you get a standard letter saying sorry!!!  You never get anything better, nothing ever changes, they dont try and improve things or give you any sort of monetary refund, free ticket, vouchers or anything.  These companies are complete scum and make me sick.  They deserve to sink, but of course you have no option because they are so large and cover such a huge percentage of the market.  I always fume that I am not going to use them anymore but as my partner so rightly tells me you only end up hurting yourself by getting so upset, they dont give a damn at the end of the day.
Sorry about such a huge rant I will think of something lovely to say next time.