Hey i am bex i am a self harmer and have been for at least 2 years now. i was talking to 2 people about me wantin to self harm and there "advice" was to find a way to relese all the self harming energy i had and this blog is gonna be that thing lol.

Broken Strings!!!
The reason this blog is called broken strings is becasue about 1 month ago i was walkin home from choir and that song was playin on my ipod but it put itself on repaet and as i was wqqalkin i was actually listening to the words and in that song it says!


Oh, it tears me up.
I tried to hold on but it hurts to much,
I tried to forgive but its not enough,
To make it all okay.

You cant play our broken strings,
You cant feel anything,
That your heart doesnt want to feel,
I can tell you some thing that aint real.

These words still make me cry everytime i hear it they kind off describe how i feel when i NEED to self harm.


yur most probably thinking she doesnt need 2 do it or that i am attention seeking but
self harm is a lot more than attention seeking it is a coping meconism. When someone picks up a ciggerette or a glass of alcohol becasue there stressed its the same with self harm. Self harm takes up many forms i.e. Cutting, Burning, Pulling Hair, Breaking Bones and lots of other ways. i started scratching but then that wasnt doing anything for me anymore so i started to cut. But then my youth worker suggested a elastic band and wen ever i feel like cutting i flick the elastic band but then that went wrong becasue i kept breaking the elastic bands and the bruises hurt like hell but the pain was worth it at the time. i am on the road to recovery but stopping will take time and there will deffinatly be momentery relapses but i have stoppedish before and will/can stop again. I am doing the butterfly project at the moment whivh is where i have a tattoo (not reall) and put it on the place where i would usually self harm and if it fades away then it lived and flew away but if i do self harm i have to wash it off but if that does happen i can easily put another on :) XxX


thanks for reading

Bexemus Maxemus x