Through A Child's Eyes
A Reflection of my parents:
FATHER
You were my hero
I loved you with my life
But I never understood
That woman, your wife
I thought you as a victim
So sad and abused
But you also hurt
The woman you accused
As time went on
I began to see
What was really happening
And how it affected me
I used to pray
That just ONCE you'd be strong
And that you would fix
All that was wrong
Until I realized
You were also the cause
But you never admitted
For you loved the applause
No matter how false
You needed the attention
And so conveniently
You forgot to mention
That you were accountable
And had a part in this all
It was your fault too
That our world began to fall
When you look in a mirror
I wonder what you see
A coward holding hostage
A little girl like me?
To this day
You can't make it right
But in my heart
I've stopped the fight
My energy is required
For my children you see
Cuz I'm here for them
When they need me
So I accept what is
And continue with my life
Living in peace & love
And no internal strife
For that's the way
It's supposed to be
Sad you weren't able
To teach that to me
MOTHER:
So cruel and hurtful
Obnoxious and loud
For someone like you
I could never feel proud
I used to ask God
Why he gave me to you
He never answered
But I knew what to do
I had to grow up
Could feel it in my core
To be a different person
And want something more
Like a life with some meaning
And to myself be true
And at all costs avoid
Ever being like you
You robbed a child
Of trust, love & hope
And without those qualities
It's so hard to cope
It's the sound of your voice
That I hate most
The sarcastic pitch -
"have a drink; let's toast"
You were so beautiful
To one looking in
But inside your heart
An unmentionable sin
Not a punishment to suit
All you have done
Did you even realize
It wasn't all fun?
But of course you did
That's why the rum
Yet for me an existence
With a heart that was numb
I remember always
A drink in your hand
I just wanted you
And I didn't understand
But the good part of life
Is that as we grow
We continue to learn
And in my heart I know
That it wasn't personal
You had your own pain
You couldn't cope
Nor from the drink refrain
It cost you so much
See, you've lost it all
It's too late to fix
For that order's too tall
You'll have to deal
With your God above
And luckily for me
My heart's filled with love
For I treasure the gifts
That have been given to me
And love & respect
Is what I want them to see
So without you
The way you were
Would I be me?
I'm really not sure
But I learned what I had to
And for that I am glad
Now this is just a story
And no longer sad
MB
Feb 9/10
Published Date:
20/02/2010
Modified Date:
20/02/2010
Poetry
THE LOVED ONE
Millions of people
In a world so vast
Can't imagine being lonely
With just memories of the past
But for countless people
It's their way of life
For circumstance has stolen
Many a husband or a wife
It's a vision you can't
Hold onto in your head
How's this even possible
Heaven is now homestead?
Everything for a reason
That's what they say
But no point of logic
Seems to make this OK
Only time will help
To sort what you feel
And what you'll be left with
Is the life that is real
For it is happening
In the here and now
Your loved ones will be waiting
And you must make the vow
To never forget but
To continue to live
Share your love with them
And to you they will give
All the strength & support
And love that you need
To continue your time here
from them you must feed
It's the Circle Of Life
And we each keep going
Where to and for how long
None of us knowing
Except that one day
When it all comes to end
We'll meet up together
With those we called friend
Morgan Belle
Sept 19/09
Published Date:
20/09/2009
Modified Date:
20/09/2009
Poetry
LES MOTS
You can't take back
Hurtful words you've said
And to the person you've spoken
Those words feel like lead
No matter how right
Or wrong the words shared
A choice and a consequence
Are always what's paired
You can feel sorry
And have much regret
But for the person receiving
They'll never forget
You must be careful
And choose your words well
For it's usually to a loved one
Hurtful words you will tell
When you feel words coming
You must give them a miss
Instead try an embrace
Or a passionate kiss
Kind words feel gentle
And give warmth it's true
So the try the kindest words ever
They are - I LOVE YOU!
Morgan Belle
Sept 12/09
Published Date:
12/09/2009
Modified Date:
12/09/2009
Poetry
BENEVOLENT STRANGERS
No matter how different
We're really the same
Various look & colours
But just people with a name
You'd think in a world
Where together we share
Our beginnings and end
That all would be fair?
Why do some suffer
With no-one to protect?
And others live freely
With so much they forget
That humans are starving
They're neglected & abused
How does this happen
That they are just refused?
The right to a life
That the rest have so good
Who determines who gets what
With necessities such as food?
Because lots of people never
Enjoy a proper meal
With no home, food or clothing
We can't imagine how they feel
Why is it acceptable
for genocide today?
After Hitler's Europe
It should never be that way
Why all the disease
And children dying of aids?
Are we meant to just live our lives
And hope the background fades?
Lots of people helping
Yet things remain the same
Is this something we can fix
Or generations continue to blame?
Many unanswered questions
We all live with the fear
Of not knowing what will happen
After our bodies depart from here
So we are the same
The makings of you and me
And how we travel thru this life
Now that will be the key
To unlock the door of truth
And discover our own fate
So live with all your heart and soul
For those answers, we must wait
Morgan Belle
Sept 12/09
Published Date:
12/09/2009
Modified Date:
12/09/2009
Poetry
PaTcHwOrK
You always helped to ensure
This day would finally arrive
Only now you're in a panic
How will you ever survive?
She's finally had the courage
For what she's always said
But you're not ready to admit
That you're no longer wed
Many chances to make it right
And now it's just too late
Place the blame - but really...
You helped in your own fate!
The consequence was massive
Just too much to admit
So you chose to be the victim
A position where you still sit
It's with yourself you're angry
But at all costs she must pay
The only victims are your children
With the actions and words you say
You only have control
Over what you say and do
And how you make your children feel
Is entirely up to you
It's at this time
You must make your choice
What kind of man? What kind of words?
And most important what kind of voice?
Daddies should make a difference
Their relationship need not end
Love your children and respect them
And just maybe, that bond you will mend!
Morgan Belle
August 29, 2009
Published Date:
30/08/2009
Modified Date:
30/08/2009
The Senses Of War
If you LOOK very closely
You will SEE the sound of war
It's the fear and hatred
Of a child's most inner core
If you LISTEN very closely
You will HEAR the sound of war
It's the deafening silence of bloodshed
And killing about to soar
If you SPEAK very closely
You will SAY the sound of war
Prejudice towards people
And their religion you deplore
If you SMELL very closely
You will BREATHE the sound of war
It's the gunshot residue and body
Where the bullets did explore
If you TOUCH very closely
You will FEEL the sound of war
It's the breaking of a heart
For a loved one's life no more
For how long must we live the senses of war?
Morgan Belle
April 20, 2009
Published Date:
25/04/2009
Modified Date:
25/04/2009
Poem
SECOND BEST
To love a man
Who has a wife
Is self-destructive
And ruins your life
You're cheating yourself
But this you know
So why let the love
Continue to grow?
Why give away
Yourself to him
When in the end
You know you can't win?
It's easy to know
Wrong from right
But you love who you love
And you want HIM at night
It feels so cruel
The irony of it all
But life without him
Would be void and null
He wants to leave her
But for the kids' sake
He'll stay and pretend
It's a choice he can't make
You're always a second
To his children and wife
And you live only half
To his whole life
Love should feel perfect
Not lonely with pain
From what you've created
You've nothing to gain
Start thinking of yourself
You deserve so much more
This isn't a loss
But a chance to soar
It may take some time
To find your soulmate
But good things will happen
To those who wait
You must give your love
To the special man who
Can give all himself
And his love to you
So find the one
Who completes your life
And to the man you love
You'll be the wife
Morgan Belle
February 20, 2008
Published Date:
21/02/2008
Modified Date:
28/02/2009
Poem
To: The World's Best Kids - Robert & Adriana
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY
My Children
If you're blessed
In this life you will find
The love of a child
It's the purest kind
For children love freely
No boundaries they hold
And the adults around them
Are the ones that they mould
They mimic your laugh
And funny old ways
It makes you think back
To your childhood days
The joy that they give
Compares to nothing I know
It's the most wonderful gift
To be watching them grow
Give them support
And the love that they need
For healthy young adults
You'll have planted the seed
Don't crush their dreams
Always teach them to know
That they can be anything
Wherever they go
Give them a chance
To find their true self
It's not about you, what they
'should' be, or wealth
Before too long
They'll be grown ups too
And your life's dedication
Where's it leave you?
Not needed as much
But you'll still be there
And all the love and the joy
For their life you will share
Love you forever,
Mommy
Published Date:
29/01/2008
Modified Date:
21/05/2008