I've been away this weekend and have had a very sick one year old to look after so I have had a busy few days. Oh and disapointing ones. I must confess to buying a packets of fags and smoking the lot. As my husband called it a 'pitiful' attempt. I couldn't agree more and it makes it more pitiful when i've been asked by 2 people today in the village - after making the remark that i'm now a page 3 girl (what a laugh with that photo!)- how i was getting on with the smoking. Anyway, i will not be detered and take the view that it was a teething problem. Now that I have committed myself to stopping smoking I will and will endeavour not to sucuumb to my cravings again. I keep telling myself that it is the addiction and this will soon pass. The nicotine will be quickly out of my system. I just need to remember that.
This is not easy though. There are particular times when I find myself wanting to smoke I just need to reaffirm the reasons why I've stopped in my own head. Not only this I put myself in an awkard position where i'm letting myself, my family and my colleagues down. However, at least by committing myself to this it spurs me on to stop.

Day 2. Not too bad. Have managed to get through it without becoming pyshco - mental - don't know how to spell! I have been on a course today so my routine changed abit. It was nice not to be the one darting out for a fag at the lunch period - and i was able to sit down and chat with people for a change. The worse thing about today has been coming home. Whinging kids and thoughtless husband have driven up my desire to have a fag. I even went through the empty packets in my car in the hope that there might be a stray fag - why i don't know? I know the secret to stopping is to stop - no odd cigggies allowed. It is hard - now - but i do realise that it will become easier and to be honest i haven't thought about them that much during the day. The testing time has been the last hour at home.

Today is 'D' day. March the 14th. National No Smoking Day. Hurray the day i've been waiting for! Well not really! Today is the day that the last cigerette will touch my lips - ever. Having quit smoking in the past for lengthy periods - 2 years was the longest - i'm ready to quit for good.Well i feel confident now at least - give me a week a nagging husband and 2 difficult children and i very well may have a completely different attitude.The thing that i must always keep reminding myself is that I do not want to smoke all my life and with two young kids, now is going to be the best time - before they remember my bad habit.

I have my reasons. I'm writing this down to completely justify in my own mind that they are the right reasons - although there shouldn't be any reasons because I know smoking is bad. I know that i will also contradict myself with the reasons when I feel the need to start having a fag. However, I will be strong and will this time do all I can mentally to overcome the urge to go rushing down to the shops to buy 10 fags. In fact just simply writing this down makes me feel so much better. I believe this is what some therapists do with their clients to overcome any issues they have.....

So, just to remind myself of the reasons I've stopped smoking. There are 5 of them - and i've told my self (i am normal honestly) to look at my hands when I fancy a fag (5 fingers = the five reasons).
1. Health - obviously i am contributing to decreasing my life expectancy. I want to be around as long as possible for my kids and to outlive my husband so i can have all his money!
2. Kids - both my parents smoked when i was young. I understand that there is some research suggesting that if parents smoke, children are extremely likely to follow their example.
3. Skin - I'm in my early thirties now and the wrinkles are beginning to come. I know smoking will make them worse. As I care about my appearance - this is becoming a real issue to me.
4. Money - I do not smoke much but as any smoker knows you'll always find money to buy fags. At the moment I smoke 10 or less a day. It has ben more in the past. Even at my current smoking levels it's around £80 per month - £960 a year. That would pay for a nice trip away or those diamond earings that i've been wanting for ages  - well we can't have everything!
5.l Pointless - smoking is absolutely pointless. It doesn't do anything other than temporarily relieve a craving for nicotine - which a smoker can apparently. overcome after approximately 6 weeks' of stopping smoking. I'll remember this next time i want a fag.

Today is 'D' day. March the 14th. National No Smoking Day. Hurray the day i've been waiting for! Well not really! Today is the day that the last cigerette will touch my lips - ever. Having quit smoking in the past for lengthy periods - 2 years was the longest - i'm ready to quit for good.Well i feel confident now at least - give me a week a nagging husband and 2 difficult children and i very well may have a completely different attitude.The thing that i must always keep reminding myself is that I do not want to smoke all my life and with two young kids, now is going to be the best time - before they remember my bad habit.

I have my reasons. I'm writing this down to completely justify in my own mind that they are the right reasons - although there shouldn't be any reasons because I know smoking is bad. I know that i will also contradict myself with the reasons when I feel the need to start having a fag. However, I will be strong and will this time do all I can mentally to overcome the urge to go rushing down to the shops to buy 10 fags. In fact just simply writing this down makes me feel so much better. I believe this is what some therapists do with their clients to overcome any issues they have.....

So, just to remind myself of the reasons I've stopped smoking. There are 5 of them - and i've told my self (i am normal honestly) to look at my hands when I fancy a fag (5 fingers = the five reasons).
1. Health - obviously i am contributing to decreasing my life expectancy. I want to be around as long as possible for my kids and to outlive my husband so i can have all his money!
2. Kids - both my parents smoked when i was young. I understand that there is some research suggesting that if parents smoke, children are extremely likely to follow their example.
3. Skin - I'm in my early thirties now and the wrinkles are beginning to come. I know smoking will make them worse. As I care about my appearance - this is becoming a real issue to me.
4. Money - I do not smoke much but as any smoker knows you'll always find money to buy fags. At the moment I smoke 10 or less a day. It has ben more in the past. Even at my current smoking levels it's around £80 per month - £960 a year. That would pay for a nice trip away or those diamond earings that i've been wanting for ages  - well we can't have everything!
5.l Pointless - smoking is absolutely pointless. It doesn't do anything other than temporarily relieve a craving for nicotine - which a smoker can apparently. overcome after approximately 6 weeks' of stopping smoking. I'll remember this next time i want a fag.